Sheepish

I wish I had gone on Thursday, but I just couldn't get out of bed. I stayed up way too late on Wednesday and I wasn't sleeping much before that. It was feeling like a chore to go and that's not what it's all about. I felt like I let everyone down. I was talking about that with Jer and he said I didn't. Everyone had bugged me so much about going that I felt like I had to. I'm worried that I'll seem like a poser. I really want this to be real. I want to be good. I want to love it. I'm pretty sure I want this for me. I'm going to make sure I go to bed early this Wednesday. I'll make it. I promise.